Realization: M brings all of me together. My life of separate shoeboxes is fading. Instead I've taken the initial steps to merge my threads and create a soft, beautiful blanket to wrap around my life and warm my heart. The ones who love and respect me are more powerful together than they are apart.
Tell: I giggle like a little girl tossed her favorite candy when Daddy calls. He brings me sheer fucking joy.
Realization: I suck at Scrabble. I'm okay with this. Once and a while I have a moment of genius, but that's it. lol
Tell: Daddy's love can easily move me to tears. My love for him can leave me unable to breathe.
Realization: I'm struggling to be strong and maintain my submission at the same time. When I hurt, I push away the pain to survive. In submission I let the pain burn and surrender to helplessness. How do I do both?
Tell: I'll wait. No matter how long it takes.
Realization: Hope and happiness go hand in hand.
Tell: Daddy's disappointment wounds me. His pride makes me strong.
Realization: External bullshit that aggravates my Warrior interferes in my focus.
Tell: I apologize automatically when I don't feel like I'm enough.
Realization: Even though I don't know the exact destination, if I keep asking M for directions I'll stay with Him and find the way.
That's it for this weekend. Still absorbing it all.