Showing posts with label Daddy's Girl. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Daddy's Girl. Show all posts

Sunday, May 25, 2014

Reflections #2: May 23, 2014


I'm purposefully taking time to reflect more intently on the positive little pieces of each day.

I have to live today focused on what I can give Him, how I can serve Him, and how I can help Us build Our tomorrow. 

What I gave Him today:

  • His submissive...I fought as long as I could on my own and then knelt at his feet when I began to loose ground and struggle.  Going to Him allowed me to submit openly my emotions and instead of letting the warrior in me rise up independently and fight alone against life's frustrations, I relied on His strength. He held my hand, and I followed His lead.
  • Alfred...we reviewed a 2nd round chapter edits together positively and productively.  I went through a 3rd round of edits grinning like a fool because it was just that good!  As he said last night, "We have a perfect marriage. I'm an author, and you're an editor." We share a common vision, and my goal is to do do everything I can to help lift Him high for the world to see. We work extremely well together, and together we accomplish amazing things. Each step we complete helps build Our tomorrow.
  • Alfred...another fun, classy graphic to promote His work.
  • His woman...kicked ass and did nearly three miles! I want to be as healthy and fit as I can for Him.  I want to be ready for my transition to NYC, and I want every man to look at Him and think, "Lucky fucking bastard." lol
  • His little girl/pet...let the softer sides of me open up and breathe again. It's been a while since I've felt that comfortable with those pieces.
  • His property...continued to give up control and allowed Him to make decision about my habits.
I have to focus on what He gives me today and the steps forward He takes that lead Us toward Our tomorrow. 

What He gave me today:
  • My Man listened openly to my stressors and encouraged me to hold on, that we are going to get there. ~sigh~ Sometimes just hearing His belief and desire for us can lift me up so high I can fly.
  • My Owner/Daddy sent me a completely unexpected "I love you pet." That affection...feeling that cherished made me whimper and my submission surrender to Him.
  • My M stayed relaxed and open while discussing another round of edits for a chapter.  He's helping us create an extremely positive energy for our working relationship.  He put together some fantastic revisions that highlight his superior story telling and reinforce the character development objectives He's determined to nurture.  All of these steps will lead Us into tomorrow. I'm so proud of His work and inherent talent!
  • My Daddy was just...sweet to me.  I know...it's little.  I know...maybe others get bigger and grandiose. But those little things mean the world to me.  With His tenderness and sweetness, I feel treasured, cherished, and important to Him.
  • My Owner laid down the law and gave me clear unmistakable orders on how I was to behave Sunday.  His protection, nurturing, and care demonstrated how much He cherishes His pet. 
  • My Owner/Man tucked me in last night.  Long hours of conversations filled laughter and banter and debates.  We really do have so much fun together.  ~sigh~ I was so emotionally open and vulnerable as I gave Him the last that I had for the day.
Yesterday was quiet and low-key. We simply enjoyed and appreciated one another.  :-)
~DominaKat

Saturday, May 24, 2014

End of the Day Reflection #1

To truly set something into my head, it's best if somehow writing is involved.  My words, the process of finding them, a the method of communicating them through writing lets me reinforce my energy and sort through the haze to find the most basic truths.  So...I'm going to try to take the time to reflect more intently on the little pieces of each day.

I have to live today focused on what I can give Him, how I can serve Him, and how I can help Us build Our tomorrow. 

What I gave Him today:

  • His submissive...worked hard to focus her attention on a positive mindset, and I apologized almost immediately when my struggle got the best of me.  This helped us both be Our best today so that we are able to do whatever we can to build Our tomorrow.
  • Alfred...gave another chapter of edits and suggested revisions/ideas; a top-notch graphic to promote His latest interview.  Both are pieces that will help build Our tomorrow.
  • Alfred...shared with Him positive feedback from her small network. Good, strong, positive energy for us both.
  • His woman...is pleasantly sore from working out to be as healthy and fit as I can for Him.  This will help me be better, stronger, faster in the long run so that I can do.
  • His pet...scrabbled in her suitcase to find something pretty to wear for Him.  Hopefully that gave Him pleasure and made His day a little bit brighter.
  • His property...continued to give up control and allowed Him to make decision about my habits.
I have to focus on what He gives me today and the steps forward He takes that lead Us toward Our tomorrow. 

What He gave me today:

  • My Daddy sent me an adorable picture of himself that made me giggle and damn near bounce on my toes.  Okay...I think I actually did a little.  lol  ~sigh~ I love when He brings me joy. It helps me relax and bask in His sunshine.
  • My Owner had His pet dress pretty for Him.  I felt desired and appreciated.
  • My M shared with me another fascinating story idea, a great blog post to read, another round of edits for a chapter.  All steps to take Us into tomorrow, but those also give me pride in Him and feel honored that He values my opinion.
  • My Man called a couple of times simply to share His excitement about something with His woman.  I am honored that He reaches for me first.  I feel treasured and cherished and important to Him.
  • My Daddy teased and played with me.
Today we were moving in the right direction a little faster than usual. :-)
~DominaKat

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Jumping Off the Cliff to Fly

We've been poised on the edge of this cliff for a while now.  There's been no going back.  The harsh winter winds battered us and tested our resolve, but we never once stopped holding hands.  As the worst sliced at my worn, exhausted mind and heart the last two days, I cried out in fear and pain from the howling monsters and their punishing blows, but Daddy was there.  He held firm.

"A man man sticks and stays.  I am a Man."
"I won't be on this ride alone.  You will be with me every step of the way."
"I'm looking forward to the future with you by my side."
"I need you."

The closer we've come to the edge of that deep chasm and the longer we stood in the cold winter, the more numb I became as my blood thickened, my mind tired, and my heartbeat slowed.  I needed His fierce words, His pledges, His promises like I needed Him to squeeze my hand with all His might.  With His words I found strength and courage and clarity.

I held viciously to my faith, my hope, and my unquestionable belief in us and everything we're reaching to build and achieve.  I won't run.  I'll never run.  I submitted to Him and to everything I feel for Him.  That Man holds my heart in his strong, steady palm.  He holds my leash.  He holds my future and my destiny.

Today...the brutal winds have finally died down, and the warm updrafts we've been waiting so damn long to fly on have finally begun to blow.

His book that we've worked SO hard for is about to launch at midnight tonight, and I finally have an interview there next week that I hope to nail.

It's been a long winter.  It's been a long five years of walking through harsh terrain.  It's time for us to fly!  Together we have what it takes to fly high in the sun and dance through the clouds.  We're ready.  We've worked hard.  We've sacrificed.  But most of all, we never let go of each other.

I so hope that in a just a short amount of time, I can meet my Daddy at the theater after work to catch a movie.  That this Spring my Owner can take his giddy pet exploring Central Park.  That my Man can show His woman the Temple of Dendur and the Brooklyn Bridge and Grand Army Plaza.  I want to go back to the little Mexican place in the village where we had our first date.  I want to dip my toes once again in the fountain at Washington Square Park and kiss my Daddy in the fine mist under a bright blue sky.

The life together we've both been working towards is coming closer and closer, and I can't wait to fly with Him on His leash. ~sigh~ :-)
~DominaKat

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Under Him

I fucking love when He holds me down.

It doesn't matter what mood we are in - light, silly and playful with my Daddy; my Owner feeling dark, dominant, and in absolute control; my vicious cruel Beast and His sweet wicked pain - when I am under him, held down in my place a certain fundamental part of me simply curls contentedly into place with a sigh of blissful peace.  Yes, this feels so fucking good.

Controlled.  Restrained.  Submission.  The weight of Him comforts me and makes me feel secure.  This.  This is where He wants me, needs me, craves me.  Under Him.  His heat washes over me.  That little bite of His hands on my forearms is an emotional and mental kiss of physical reassurance as the bruises bloom at His touch.

His.  Held down.  In my place.  Daddy plays and tickles His little girl to fits giggles and glee and sweet warm kisses.  My Owner's firm tug of the leash guiding His loyal, obedient pet toward her pure submission through pleasure so intense I helplessly cum on His command.  My dark sadistic Beast feasting on his willing victim's pleads, tears, and oh so cherished pain.  ~sigh~

Being held down is the most basic of D/s positions.  It never gets old.  It never gets boring.  It never fails to feed my submission.  I NEED those moments like I need air to breathe.  Laying in His bed, being under M this weekend...was sheer unquantifiable joy.  I live for those moments with Him.
~DominaKat

Friday, October 4, 2013

The Quirky Stuff that Becomes the Norm

LOL It is sometimes the small quirky things that show me in fresh light how very head over heels I am for M.  Those things I would have once thought, "Naaaaa...can't see where I would ever have a reason to do that."  But here I am - in this time, place, and headspace - and these things come as natural as a fat kid eating cake.  Or almost... ;-P

  • Not only is the NYC subway map a bookmark on my Air, but I just downloaded an app for it as well.  I'm getting acquainted with my Daddy's city on more than just a passing-through-tourist level.
  • In fact there are a number of new bookmarks because of M.  When we're in the middle of a discussion we need background data fast.  Neither of us like to guess.
  • I cheer for and cuss at the Dallas Cowboys.  I may even need to get my own shirt.   Well...maybe I could wear Browns colors if I get to do any game watching with M this year.  Hehehe
  • I went to see the #$%@?*^! movie.  Yeahhhhhh...I NEVER saw THAT one coming!  That one I may have resisted a bit.  
  • I eat popcorn at the theater.  Only a few handfuls though!
  • I attempt to find fashionable athletic shoes.  Seriously...I have some kind of blind spot when it comes to this kind of shoes/clothing item.  Heels, dresses, jeans, tops, etc...I have no problem finding flattering, fashionable styles.  But I can NOT for the life of me seem to find "cute" tennis shoes.  The entire concept escapes me, and everyone tells me my tennis shoes suck.  I've never really cared about what they looked like simply because I saw them as a practical need not a fashion statement.  Now I try to find something decent.  I just continue to miss the mark completely.  
None of those feel odd to me anymore.  I may not do them well.  I may not do them gracefully.  But the source and drive to do them feels perfectly in synch with my life.  I suppose my point is that I'm discovering that the level of intimacy established in my D/s relationship with M extends beyond being His pet and submissive into Kat.  Vanilla pieces are influenced just as much as kinky.  While that would have intimidated me a few years ago, I simply enjoy the transformation and the new things on the horizon.
~DominaKat

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Oh...Daddy...

Oh...
Daddy...

How you.
Cherish.
So much.

Your little girl.

My Daddy's eyes.
See the child.

A doll house.
Built.
To laugh and play.

Sweet.
Joy.

Oh...
Daddy...

How You.
Take.
Such care.

Of me.

My Daddy's hands.
Rescue His baby.

My wound.
Tended.
My tears dried.

Fierce.
Guardian.

Oh...
Daddy...

How You.
Protect.
And fight for.

Your pet.

His strong arms.
Hold me so tight.

Caught as I jump.
Kissed as I cried.
A thousand ways treasured.

Home.
His.

Oh...
Daddy...

How You.
Love.
Without hesitation.

Me.

Oh...
Daddy...

Oh...
Daddy...

I am forever.
Yours.
~DominaKat

Monday, May 20, 2013

A Babygirl's Joy

Over the last year, I've discovered that babygirl in me has her blessings and challenges.  Her best quality is (in my eyes)...

Her unapologetic joy.

It is pure.  It is bright.  It is a thousand vibrant colored balloons on a beautiful sunny day.

My Daddy will be here this weekend!!!!!!  Yes!  Yes!  YES!!!!!  Hehehe

Babygirl's joy is flooding my system.  lol  I am helpless to deny her.  For the first time in as long as I can remember, I'm letting my excitement flow well before something is directly in front of me.  In every other trip either one of us has made, I've remained calm, cool, and collected until either Him or I have boarded and are officially on our way.  Now - DAYS ahead of time -I'm as giddy and as goofy as a school girl with her first crush.

I love my Daddy ridiculously.  I have no pride or composure.  Just that sweet warm brilliant joy.  I can't wait to hear Him laugh, can't wait to see Him smile, can't wait to play like kids, and can't wait to be cuddled up into Him like...well...a child with her Daddy.  lol

I am consistently amazed at the emotions M inspires in me.

The answer of why is trust.  I trust Him physically, mentally, and most of all emotionally.  I trust Him not just with here and now but most of all with my heart tomorrow.  I believe in His love for me.  I bask in it.

Tonight, I wondered briefly at where the rational, sane woman who also inhabits this body has disappeared to, but then I realized she was only a few feet away, smiling big, and clutching a few balloons too.  lol  ;-)

~DominaKat

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

When I Knew...

The moment when I knew really knew I was all in...

It was a very warm day last Memorial Day weekend, and M and I were walking through Washington Square Park.  The kids were playing in the fountain.  A huge grin immediately broke across my face, and I asked M if I could play too.  After much teasing and banter, He indulged me.  I slipped off my sandals and climbed over the rim as He sat down to watch.  I walked out a few feet.  The water lapping at my soles, then my ankles, then my calves.  I giggled with delight at the fountain's geyser as "rain drops" peppered my warm flesh.

I remember my smile.

I remember my sheer joy.

I remember turning around to see His head cocked just so, looking so dapper and composed.

And right then I knew without any doubt...I was deeply in love with this Man.

I've never played with a lover.  The silly, sweet, goofy girl in me has rarely seen the light of day and never with a romantic interest.  That so quickly the child in me would not just poke her head out of her room but run laughing out into the light of day without thought or hesitation told me how incredible our connection was.

She'd never felt so safe.  She'd never felt so loved or cherished.  She'd never been free.

That little girl realized in a heartbeat what the rest of me hadn't yet understood.  I'd already given my heart completely to M.

~sigh~

I love that Man somethin' fierce.
~DominaKat

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Wrapped in His Love

My submission to M is a tapestry of all in me.  The hungry whore.  The vulnerable babygirl.  The woman.  The willing masochistic victim.  The strong warrior.  And even analytical Alfred.  They all blend together to form my submission and desire for dominance.  Each serves.  Each finds pleasure and purpose in their service.  Their unique tones and flavors ebb and flow through the day, the week, the moment, the year depending on circumstances, desires, and opportunities.

Lately, I've worked toward being stronger in my submission.  What M needs most right now is His strong woman at His back to fight for Him, work for Him, and be His port in stormy seas.  And what I need right now to be my best is a strong firm place to begin.  

My love.  my submission.  my practical me - all must begin with strength and courage, intent and focus.  Yet, somehow along the way, babygirl began to be my beginning.  Yes, she loves absolutely and with a sweet purity that knows no pride.   She is soft and sweet and devoted.  But her vulnerabilities and softness did not lend themselves to a steady, harmonious dance of Dominance and submission, which only made turbulent water we came upon so much worse for us both.

Yet...Though I've tried for the last week, I can't bury that little girl as I did so long ago as a child.  M nurtured her to existence and set her free.  Now, it's nearly impossible for me to stuff her in a closet and forget she's there.  She won't let me.  Even when I try.  

In the dead of night, she snuck out and made her presence known.  No drama.  No chaos.  Just simply, looked me straight in the eye and said, "I just need to curl up with my Daddy."  I hesitated to reach out to Him.  I was torn, but gave in to the need.   I didn't want to see her - to acknowledge her need or her weakness.  I wanted to be strong and sure of myself again, not trapped by the softest pieces of me.  Yet, I was starting to wonder if by denying babygirl I was somehow pushing an emotional distance between M and I that had never been there.   Last night, once I acknowledge her presence, I felt steadier.  That side of my submission was filled in again with the pure love, devotion, and sweetness I'd been avoiding the last few days out of fear of the vulnerability they might bring.

However, I still fought for control most of the day.  Between the rough night and my own momentary personal struggle for the day, I couldn't keep babygirl quietly tucked away.  She didn't get out of control, but she kept me breathless.  The need for the safety and security of my Daddy's love clawed at me.  ~sigh~  I didn't hide that I was struggling from M.  Though part of me longed to in order to shield Him.  To show Him I could keep up my strength.  To not fail Him in any way.  Yet the harder I fought harder to push babygirl away, the more tension I felt and couldn't quench.

When Daddy wrapped His love around me, I cried in relief.  He fought for me in that moment, charging in like a knight in shining armor to set things right.  He kissed away my tears.  He gave my babygirl a safe, perfect, warm place to curl into.  Then he took my hand and led me where I needed to go.  He made me laugh.  He gave me instructions.  I followed and finally found the peace and balance again that I so need and crave.

I'm not sure He understood just how much I appreciated His strong presence today.  For more than a year now, we have become more and more intertwined in each other's hearts and minds.  When we are in synch there is an astounding peace and rightness that I've never experience anything even close to even in the best of times with others.  A sweet harmony.  

It isn't always easy for us.  Some days are hard.  But we get through.  Every day, we choose one another and work on our difficulties or enjoy our victories.  Today, despite my struggle and challenges, I count it a victory.  Because with M's steady Dominance, I was able to gracefully surrender and find my strength again, so I could be stronger for Him, me, and Us.

Thank you Daddy.  For all that you do.
~DominaKat

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Daddy's Embrace

My thoughts are quiet and hazy.
I'm drifting toward slumber.
And all I can feel is Him.

His scent.
The warmth of Him.
The solid length of Him next to me.

The warm, easy tug of our love that envelopes me.

All is well.
All is right.
Here.
With Him.

Security as I've never known.
So peaceful and gentle.
My heart swells.
My soul surrenders.

And I sleep in my Daddy's embrace.

Now here it is less than three days from when I first penned those words, and I don't know what happened.  I only know I ache like I've been beaten, and no one will explain.
~DominaKat

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Simple, Sweet Moments with Daddy

Every once and a while, I run across something that slips past my guard and tugs hard and quick at my heart.  Last night I was watching a family movie with my mom when I felt that punch.   In the scene the very vanilla completely dressed couple were simply getting into bed when the husband rolled her to her back and covered her with his body to kiss and nibble at her while they chatted.  It may be a basic and common practice between couples, but that tender, loving moment squeezed the breath from me.  I missed my Daddy so terribly I had to fight back tears.

The first night we were together, He held me tight for hours.  It was like He was determined to make up for every night I'd spent alone for the last 10 years and every night I'd spent in misery the 10 years before that.  He slowly and firmly stroked my body, not to seduce me to open my thighs but to open my heart.  I'd never before felt so wanted, cherished, and loved.  I'm not sure if He felt it, but I remember how I trembled in his arms.  I was afraid of that tenderness even as with each touch I discovered how starved I was for affection.  Daddy fed me that night and the next and every night we've spent together since, knowing more than I how much I need the simple and sweet side of love.  My heart is in His hands as I've given it to Him without reservations.

Over the last year, Daddy and I have spent many long hours tucked under covers or in the nest.  Those are some of my sweetest memories of 2012.  Long slow deep kisses.  Little kisses and cuddles.  Petting and tight hugs.  Quiet heartfelt whispers.  Healing tears.  Laughter and giggles.  Sighs and whimpers.  I simply adore being wrapped in M's heat, a delicious tangle of arms and legs.  My memories of those simple, sweet moments with my Daddy warm me every night as I fall asleep.

I can't wait to add more memories in the coming year.  ~sigh~
~DominaKat

Friday, September 21, 2012

Bruises & Tears

More and more.
When I fall down.
I reach for Daddy.

To tend to my bruises.
To wipe my tears.

I seek His comfort.
I take shelter in His warmth.
I cling to His strength.

His presence.
Is all I need.
To heal.

He makes my bruises fade.
He dries my tears.

I need my Daddy now.
Sleep won't come.
My pain won't abate.

I want to surrender.
I ache to let go.
I am afraid.

Only Daddy.
Can make it better.
Until then...

The bruises I'll carry.
I'll hold back the tears I can't let fall.
~DominaKat

~DominaKat

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Babygirl's Limitations

I'm learning many, many beautiful facets of babygirl.  However she does have her limitations and thankfully she is not the sum or whole of me.  While my inner little girl may sometimes have the center stage at times, she is NEVER responsible for making important decisions.  Good god...what a hot mess THAT would be.  When suddenly caught in less than steady circumstances, she can be impulsive, skittish, fragile, and rarely logical.  None of which are good emotional places to make choices.

I'm not big into the "Littles" mentality at ALL.  I don't fucking color or bounce up and down for cartoons, Hello Kitty, or My Lil Pony.  ~eye roll~  I don't have toys I sit on the floor to play with, and diapers are not sexy.  ~ewww~  (Though I will play in puddles and swing, but anyway...lol) When it comes down to it, I'm still very much a grown ass woman with some sense.  When life doesn't go my way, I may hold a bit of little girl deep inside of me, but that doesn't mean I throw tantrums or pout like a child.  That silliness is just not productive and only adds difficulty to any type of situation.  Nope...my D/s relationship does not include the identity of a self-indulgent, 2 year old stomping her feet.

In my opinion, though I'm sure he'll agree with me, it is unacceptable for babygirl to cause Daddy unnecessary chaos or drama.  Yes, sometimes her sensitivity can create emotional moments.  However there is a huge difference between being open with Daddy about the softer and potentially frenzied emotions going on inside me and acting irresponsibly or even detrimentally on those emotions.  When babygirl gets in a tizzy, the rest of me calmly has to urge her to go take a little nap until either Daddy gets there or the rational sides of me can handle the situation. Unfortunately, I'm finding that the more babygirl has freedom the more difficult it is to silence her, so I'll have to be cognizant of that moving forward.

Ultimately, babygirl should simply be a joy for both Daddy and I.  Fun and playful.  Sweet and vulnerable.  Giggles and occasionally sweet tears for Daddy.  She is a treasure in our relationship to be protected and nurtured.  Any punishment she receives at Daddy's hands should really be about fun naughtiness and not about correcting bratty behavior.  ;-P
~DominaKat

And no...the reason for this post is NOT because I'm in trouble.  lol  It all started with two friends discussing our softer sides, and my realization that my little girl can NEVER make important decisions.  Thinking ahead is typically strongly recommended in my book.    

Monday, August 27, 2012

Getting to Know Babygirl

Ahhhhh...yes, my little girl is finally out of hiding and out playing.  Daddy found me and refuses to let me out of his sight.  He nurtures me, often knowing what I need before I do.  I never really knew her before M was in my life.  I knew she was there,,.but I kept her safely locked away, so she wouldn't get hurt.  Every day I learn more and more about her.  Today's epiphanies...

Babygirl is almost pure emotion, and her emotions tend to be extreme...Joy...fear... sadness...silliness... Yes, she can sit still for a while, but she lives in my very emotional heart.  Logic is not really something she can grasp.  lol  Trust me...the intellectual side of me at times tries to reason with her when things get a little scary, but she pretty much hears nothing I say.  She simply feels.  In those moments when she is afraid, reason has no ground.  Only Daddy's reassurance, love, compassion, comfort, and patience have any impact.  A+B=C is stupid and irrelevant in her world.

She is simple.  Simple to please.  Simple in needs.  Quite honestly...there is only Daddy in her eyes.   "That's my Daddy."  "Where's my Daddy?"  "I want my Daddy."  That's it.  Everything she is revolves around Him.  He is her unrestrained joy and reason to be.  He is her playmate, her guardian, her direction, the love of her life.  A word, a touch, a whisper can bring her to tears, calm her, or make her blush.  Only Daddy can make her giggle.  Only Daddy holds her heart.
~DominaKat

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Daddy Please...

I've held back when I shouldn't have.  No excuses.  No fucking explanations.  I'll figure that all out later.  For now...just honesty.  Admit the truth.  Show my weakness and find strength in my submission.

Daddy.
I need.
Him.
It's been too long.

I can barely breathe without Him.
It hurts to even Be without Him.

I want to...
Scream.
Cry.
Beg.

I don't want practical.
I don't want to be mature.

I need my Daddy.

I need to hold His hand tight.
I need to crawl in His lap and close my eyes.
I need to cling to Him in desperation.
I need to sob in His arms as He takes.

I can't wait.
I can no longer be strong.

I'm a wreck.
I'm vulnerable.
I'm chaos.
I'm a child.

So afraid of being weak.
Yet suffocating on my pain.

I need my Daddy.

He'll make it better.
He'll make it right.
He'll make the hurt stop.
He'll set me free.

My pain chokes me.
My tears suffocate me.

I need to see His smile.
I need to nuzzle into His palm.
I need to curl at His feet.
I need to sleep in His embrace.

Daddy...please...
Help me Daddy...

I need to serve Him.
I need to please Him.
I need to feel His Beast.
I need to be wrapped in Him.

To give Him everything I am.
To surrender completely to Him.

I need my Daddy.

To be His babygirl.
To be His soft spot.
To be His hope.
To be His inspiration.

I am weak.
I am lost.

I need to comfort Him.
I need to laugh with Him.
I need to bask in His heat and strength.
I need to burn in our passion.

I can't ignore my misery.
I can't push away my sadness.

He is my air.
He is my sanity.
He is my anchor.
He is my compass.

My ache and longing cripple me.
My love for Him overwhelming.

I need my Daddy.

Oh please...Daddy...
It hurts so much right now...

I need my Daddy.

Just my Daddy.

Daddy...

Please...

~DominaKat

Friday, August 24, 2012

For Daddy's Eyes Only

It all started with a conversation about a nap... lol

Last night, I ended up having a little photo shoot with Daddy.  Daddy picked the attire.  White lace thong.  White skin tight "wife beater" tank.  Breasts bulging.  Curves everywhere they are suppose to be.  Crisp white against golden warm skin.  See through fabrics teasing and taunting.  My best set of pics yet.  They were fucking HOT as hell!

As Daddy reviewed the images, his decision was immediate and absolute.  "None of those are to be posted. They all belong to ME! I will allow others to gawk, but there are times when you and everything about you is strictly mine.  That happens to be most of the time.  You are my sexy babygirl, and this time I'm not sharing."

Yes, Sir.

~sigh~  I fucking love when Daddy is greedy with me.  It makes me feel sexy, desirable, and utterly loved.  It makes me feel secure and protected.  Not that I EVER forget, but Daddy's greed is a sweet reminder...I am owned.  I am His.  I serve His pleasure ONLY.  He plans on keeping His pet a long, long time.  ;-)
~DominaKat

Friday, July 27, 2012

Blatant Mushy Girl Goo

Sorry.  Can't help it.  I've been flat out feeling all kinds of ooey and gooey the last 24 hours.  I'm tra-la-la'ing even though I've never been that kind of girl.  It's ALL Daddy's fault.  He brings out all the soft, sweet pieces of me.  So here's a little light to balance some of that wicked darkness I usually blog about.
  • My Daddy makes me smile all the damn time.   Just a text saying "Hi" will brighten my day.
  • This morning I didn't want to get up at all.  I just wanted to snuggle with M and place little kisses along his jaw until he gave in and let us both go back to bed.  He wouldn't give in, and I was actually on time for my meeting.  lol  
  • I want to...
    • Sit at the park next to him with my head on his shoulder and listen to his stories.
    • Dance in the rain with my Daddy.
    • Feed him spoonfuls of ice cream and lick the extra off his lips.
  • I adore holding M's hand.  Just feeling him there.  Constant.  Strong.  Leading me.
  • Daddy sparks my desire to play, and he indulges me - even letting me play in the fountain on a hot summer day while he patiently watched.  ;-)
  • A perfect Friday night with Daddy includes pizza with extra cheese and extra pepperoni and a movie curled up on the couch together.  Ask anyone who knows me...I rarely even watch TV let alone sit still for several hours.  Yet I just want to BE with him.  Enjoy his presence.  Share simple heartfelt affections.
  • I bask in Daddy's approval.  When he smiles at me I'm lost.
  • Daddy protects me fiercely.  I'm still in the process of learning what this means, it's not at all what I'm use to, and sometimes I don't realize how broadly that trait extends.  That kind of absolute emotion simply stuns me and has humbled me to tears at its beauty.
Our D/s dynamic has numerous tones and subtleties.  In each our growth continues through his leadership and direction.  However, what has caught me off guard so many times in the last several weeks is that every day the Daddy/little girl dance becomes more and more natural to me.  While I'm not at ALL a full out little into cartoons, stuffed animals, or tantrums, the D/lg dynamic is not just a sexual fantasy.  It's a natural dynamic between us.  I am completely at ease with Him.

M makes me feel, want, and crave things I long ago gave up - tenderness, giggles, silly laughter, soft caresses, sweet sighs, shy hugs and leaning into the reassurance of his strong hand.  In 20 years, no man has tempted me to indulge in the softer side of love.  I'm not sure anyone else could have done it - had the right magic to do it.  The trust and respect necessary for this kind of emotional vulnerability simply wasn't possible.  However, M is (his words here) "the perfect blend of compassion and sadism" - light and dark - for me.  Too much of either would have sent me running.

Daddy is confident and secure in himself enough that he's never been intimidated by me.  He's so attentive and patient that he saw what I hid from the world.  Instead of leaving all that in the dark, he slowly coaxed me to his hand, nurturing His little girl persistently not with over the top silliness but with warmth, affection, kindness, strength and relentlessly continuing to call me cute or adorable when I least expect it.  lol
~DominaKat

Monday, July 23, 2012

Something to Cry About (Revised)

The first version of my story was met with nervousness.  Being in my own mind, I failed to convey the genuine caring and incredible control that a strong, loving sadist has for his willing counterpart.  I have revised as well as provided this introduction for the gentler Doms/subs that are my readers.  No...I am not abused.  And NO...M is neither uncaring nor cold heartedly cruel.  He is one of the most kind and giving men I've ever known.

I am a greedy masochist.  M is my beautiful Sadist.  We are ying and yang.  Pain is incredibly delicious to me when delivered by Him - the One I trust, respect, and love.  The process of pain is incredibly cleansing and powerful as well as infinitely intimate.  When I reach masochist-space (as opposed to subspace) I devour each touch like a starving animal.  I am wild, uncontrolled, and insatiable.  My internal beast is unleashed.  M touches, strokes, and kisses my soul in those moments, and our beasts dance in the darkness that is us.

He's the only One I've ever found who understood instinctually my need and how to sate those cravings.  In fact, he understands it all better than I do and typically knows what I need before I can even begin to articulate the messiness in my head.  THAT is what this story is about.  How a Dom looks into his sub's soul and discovers what she truly needs.  It simply has a Daddy/little girl spin which is another aspect of our relationship and play.

Now, on to the story...
My Daddy found me curled up on the bed, clutching a tear stained pillow. A misunderstanding between us had cost us both our first few rough and distant hours. While we'd sorted out the initial misunderstanding, my wounds still bled, though the flow had diminished to a trickle. Our first stumble. We were both a little bruised and gravel still clung to my palms and knees.  I'd never felt my little girl so strongly.  I was drowning in submission and need.  I was utterly lost.

An hour before, I'd simply crawled on top of the covers in my dress with my back to the door, letting my heels clatter to the floor.  I'd been desperate to give in to the emotions flooding through me.  When I heard M's quiet entry, my heart jumped, and fresh tears slowly slid down my cheeks.  I was simultaneously relieved He was there yet incredibly anxious.  I waited tensely.

I heard him lower his bag to the floor and the soft shuffle as he toed off his shoes.  The whisper of fabric was the only sound in the room as he tugged his dress shirt from his pants and unbuttoned that long row I was always in a rush to separate.  I knew every sound.  I had heard them so often.  Submission clawed at me.  I ached deeply.  For what, I didn't really understand.

I felt his weight press down on the bed.  A moment later his heat at my back and his arms closing around me tight.  The dam broke inside me.  Another round of hot salty tears poured from my soul.  His lips in my hair he cooed softly to me.  "It's okay, babygirl.  I promise."  He kissed my head, my temple, my shoulder and kept me tight against him as I sobbed.  I'd never been such a mess and for something no where near catastrophic.  Distantly, the intellectual me was appalled at my silliness.

Gently he rolled me to my back so that I was under him.  I hid my face against the warm, soft comfort of his undershirt, soaking it with my sorrow.  "Talk to me, baby.  Come on."

With a jagged breath I tried to explain, "Please Daddy....It just hurts, and I'm scared."

He pulled me close, petting my hair. "It was only a misunderstanding, little one.  Here, let Daddy clean you up."  His thumb gently ran over my cheeks trying to wipe away my tears, but more only fell in their wake.  I couldn't seem to pull myself together even in the sweet comfort of his arms.  I needed something I couldn't define.

Daddy stared down at me I knew.  But I didn't have the strength to meet his eyes.  Maybe if I had...

As he stroked my hair he asked in a whisper, "Do you trust your Daddy, baby?"  I nodded yes choking on a little sob.  "Do you know what you need right now?"  I shook my head and only cried harder clutching his shirt in my fist.  "Do you trust that I know what you need?"

In desperate relief I gave myself over to Him.  "Yes, Daddy...I trust you...I always trust you...please...please...help me..."  I needed Him to lead me out of my misery.  I needed Him to guide me away from the emotional cliff I was clinging to.

"Okay babygirl," he cooed.  "I promise I'll give you what you need.  What we both need."  Then he kissed my lips and licked at the salty stains clinging to their surface.  For long minutes he simply held me.

His fingers threaded lightly through my hair and then drew tight in a fist pulling my face slowly from the security of his chest.  The tender caresses that had pushed away my tears disappeared, as his other hand gripped my cheeks.  Calmly he gave me an order.  "Look at me, little girl."  I hesitated, not wanting to see the disappointment in his eyes.  He slapped my cheek firmly before renewing the grip against my jaw.  Without ever raising his voice, "Look.  At.  Me."  His mood was clear.  There was no longer any question, I obeyed.

I slowly rose my lashes, dreading what I would find.  Instead of disappointment, my eyes met an unexpected fierceness.  In his quiet yet oh so demanding tone, he asked, "Did I give you fucking permission to cry?"

"No Sir," I whispered even as my tears fell.

"Then I believe what you need is something to cry about," he growled.

He tightened his grip on my jaw and opened my mouth to a searing kiss.  His tongue sank deep and dark into my mouth, leaving me breathless and igniting a sudden all consuming fire in my gut.  He squeezed my cheeks, forcing my jaw wider to thoroughly control our kiss.  He demanded.  I gave.  He sucked harshly at my tongue until it was dragged out of my mouth to claim and use.  His teeth and firm lips claimed a unique intimacy so brutal and raw that I was helpless.

When he raised his head, I laid limply in the shelter of his arms.  I couldn't think.  He let go of my face but held firmly to my hair.  Through my shuttered lashes I watched him look me up and down.  A dark laugh was my only warning before I felt him tug at the bunched skirt of my dress and exposed my panty-less pussy.  I was embarrassed to realize that during our kiss, I had instinctually spread my legs wantonly for him.  In a soft gruff voice he coaxed my desire, "Ahhhh...there we go.  I knew that's also what you needed.  You need Daddy to touch you don't you, babygirl?"

I tried to close my legs in shame, but Daddy immediately smack each thigh.  "Show Daddy that sweet pussy, baby.  I know you're already nice and wet."

I whimpered but again obeyed, spreading myself wide for his eyes.  I could feel my slick damp folds, even as I continued to cry.  I was confused by the extremes tearing through me - my tears, my desire.  "Mmmmm...look how wet you are for Daddy."  He reached between my legs and firmly dragged a single finger through my drenched cunt.  "Such a good slut."  I cried out at the intrusion and tried to pull away ashamed at my betraying body.  I wanted, yet...I wasn't sure I could let myself go.

He shifted his weight to hold me in place, then slowly dragged his wet finger across my lips.  "Yes, that tells Daddy exactly what you need and want."  Gently he licked and sucked at my lips to taste as he tore the front of my dress open to expose my heavy aching breasts.  I started to sob.

"Daddy...please..." I begged.

"What, babygirl?" he cooed sweetly as His hand brutally molded one breast and pinched its taunt nipple.  "What do you need from Daddy?" he whispered in my ear.

All I could do was whimper.  All I could do was arch my back and push my aching fat tits towards Daddy's touch.  My body begged for what neither my mind nor emotions could articulate.  I needed to be His.

"You don't know," he chided me.  "But I do."  Daddy always knew what I needed.  His fingers dug into the soft tender flesh of my breast.  Heaven and hell.  I groaned.  I sniffled.  "And I'm going to give you exactly what you need.  What we BOTH need...a reason for you to cry."  Daddy held my most sensitive breast up and firmly sucked its fat hard nipple,  His teeth worried that thick meat making me cry out in pain.

"That's only the beginning little girl," he promised.  The hard slap to my heavy breast stung like fire.  "You need to feel Daddy's hunger for you, don't you?"  Another slap to the other.  I whimpered with each lick of sweet pain.  "My lil slut needs Daddy to play with her to make her better, don't you?"  My mind was shattering, and I missed my chance to reply.   Two hard wicked slaps to my heaving breasts were my punishment.  "Answer me!"

"Yes, Daddy.  Please....Please, Daddy.  Touch me." I pleaded even as I instinctively tried to curl in on myself closing my legs and bringing them to my chest.

"Don't fucking shut your legs.  You know better than that," he growled pulling my hair hard.  "Open them up wide and show Daddy that pretty little fuckhole you want Daddy to play with before I beat you for disobeying me."  My pussy clenched hard in response and wept.  I needed his darkness.  I didn't need sweet words.  I need us raw and dark and rough.

I clutched at the hem of my dress and dragged it to my waist and open my creamy thighs wide.  I could feel my juices slide out of my pussy and down to tease my tight puckered asshole.  "Mmmmmm...such a good girl for Daddy," he whispered.  His hand grabbed at my crotch harshly. "Were you scared, baby?"  Two fingers slipped inside me, and I helplessly arched into Daddy's demanding touch, grinding into his palm.

"Yes, Daddy," I cried, tears brimming again in emotional overload even as hot desire flooded my body.

Three fingers..."Did you think Daddy would walk away from his precious little girl?"  My juices were slick and hot around his fingers.  I began to pant and whimper.

"I didn't know, Daddy.  I didn't know.  I hate dis-a-apointing you."  His hand slid from my hair to wrap lightly around my neck.  I leaned my head back further, desperate for his dominance.

Light kisses peppered my full breasts.  "I know you do, baby.  I know you do," he cooed.  He paused for a moment with those three long fingers seated so deeply inside me, teasing my inner walls.  Then he whispered so sweetly, "Now be a very, very good girl for Daddy, okay?"  As I nodded my head, lips pressed tightly together in response to his erotic touch, his fingers slip gently from me.  I whimpered at the loss.  "Now, cum as I stretch that sweet greedy pussy nice and wide."

His grip on my neck tightened, restraining my air as four fingers slammed brutally into me stretching the tunnel he used with no apology.   "Cum for Daddy."   His palm beat against my sensitive clit.  "Squirt all over the bed and your dress."   Rapid strokes meant to demand my orgasm.     "Show Daddy how much you like me it rough and nasty."

Straining for air, I erupted.  My hot wet orgasm pour all over his hands like a waterfall.  Daddy only laughed.  "Such a good little slut."  His pounding continued.  He released my throat to hear my desperate groans.  Wave after wave splashed my thighs, soaking my dress and the comforter.  He unmercifully spread the lips of my hole wide, so he could watch the spasms rack through me.  "Ahhhh...look at you cum so hard for Daddy."

Embarrassed at such intimacy, I buried my face against his chest struggling to catch my breath from my continued tears and the shattering orgasm.  He never gave me a chance.  "Still crying, little girl?" A firm slap to my open exposed hole sent fire racing up my spine.  "There's a good reason."  Another.  In reflex my thighs snapped shut. Daddy simply pried them apart leaving bruises in my resistance and his demand.

"Please Daddy!  It hurts!" I sobbed, stating the obvious.  I knew of the heaven yet to come, yet we both always loved when I begged for mercy.

"I know.  I know it fucking hurts."  Rapid smacks to my thighs, my cunt, my bottom.  "I like hurting you." Each strike becoming harder and flaming my passion hotter.

"Daddy...Daddy..." I whaled again and again through my tears.  Needing more while at the same time afraid of the next lick of pain.

He simply increased the  intensity  with each blow.  I struggled to move away from him.  He refused to grant me mercy.  "Awww...poor baby."  Smack.  I trembled.  "Keep crying."  SMACK!  Cathartic tears poured from my soul.  "Give it to Daddy."  SMACK!  I was so close to the edge.  "Give it to me."  SMACK!  There...God yes...I was there.

Suddenly the fiery pain racking my body shifted, replaced by the cool, overwhelming grace of subspace.  Every muscle in my body relaxed.  My tears finally ceased.  I moaned deeply, wantonly..."Yes...Daddy.  Please...More."  My legs spread wide offering myself to him with abandon.  He gave me exactly what I craved.

"Ahhhh yes...There you go baby.  Take it all...Take..."  I could hear his approval.  "Let me give you what you need."  I could hear his desire.  He growled hungrily.  He reigned controlled violence down on me as I devoured the incredibly beautiful pain that he gave.  I couldn't get enough.  I arched into his blows.

"Thank you Daddy...Thank you...More...Thank you..." I chanted.  I orgasmed again and again without shame as he watched his baby's gushing hole surrender to his sadistic pleasures.  >My mind, body, and soul absorbed every touch and torment.  I was lost in all that was us.

"Such a good girl...such a very good girl."  I felt Daddy's weight shift to between my thighs and then he was sinking so deeply in me.  His hands threaded tightly in my hair.  My arms and legs curled around him hungry for his weight as he began to rock firmly in me.  "Look at me, baby.  Look at Daddy."

My hazed gaze met his.  "Your mine."  He filled my swollen cunt as he kissed my tear stained cheeks.  "Don't ever doubt that.  I'm not letting you go."

"I'm yours, Daddy." I whispered, arching to meet his demand.  "Always."

"Good girl.  Very good girl.  Now take..."

Again and again Daddy took all that what was His, and I gave Him everything.
~DominaKat

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Something to Cry About

My Daddy found me curled up on the bed, clutching a tear stained pillow. A misunderstanding between us had cost us both our first few rough and distant hours. While we'd sorted out the initial misunderstanding, my wounds still bled, though the flow had diminished to a trickle. Our first stumble. We were both a little bruised and gravel still clung to my palms and knees.  I'd never felt my little girl so strongly.  I was drowning in submission and need.  I was utterly lost.

An hour before, I'd simply crawled on top of the covers in my dress with my back to the door, letting my heels clatter to the floor.  I'd been desperate to give in to the emotions flooding through me.  When I heard M's quiet entry, my heart jumped, and fresh tears slowly slid down my cheeks.  I was simultaneously relieved He was there yet incredibly anxious.  I waited tensely.

I heard him lower his bag to the floor and the soft shuffle as he toed off his shoes.  The whisper of fabric was the only sound in the room as he tugged his dress shirt from his pants and unbuttoned that long row I was always in a rush to separate.  I knew every sound.  I had heard them so often.  I ached deeply.  For what, I didn't really understand.

I felt his weight press down on the bed.  A moment later his heat at my back and his arms closing around me tight.  The dam broke inside me.  Another round of hot salty tears poured from my soul.  His lips in my hair he cooed softly to me.  "It's okay, babygirl.  I promise."  He kissed my head, my temple, my shoulder and kept me tight against him as I sobbed.  I'd never been such a mess and for something no where near catastrophic.  Distantly, the intellectual me was appalled at my silliness.

Gently he rolled me to my back so that I was under him.  I hid my face against the warm, soft comfort of his undershirt, soaking it with my sorrow.  "Talk to me, baby.  Come on."

With a jagged breath I tried to explain, "Please Daddy....It just hurts, and I'm scared."

He pulled me close, petting my hair. "It was only a misunderstanding, little one.  Here, let Daddy clean you up."  His thumb gently ran over my cheeks trying to wipe away my tears, but more only fell in their wake.  I couldn't seem to pull myself together even in the sweet comfort of his arms.  I needed something I couldn't define.

Daddy stared down at me I knew.  But I didn't have the strength to meet his eyes.  Maybe if I had...

His fingers threaded lightly through my hair and then suddenly drew tight in a fist pulling my face from the security of his chest.  The tender caresses that had pushed away my tears disappeared, as his other hand gripped my cheeks harshly.  "Look at me, little girl."  I hesitated, not wanting to see the disappointment in his eyes.  He slapped my cheek firmly before renewing the grip against my jaw.  "Look.  At.  Me."  There was no longer any question, I obeyed.

I slowly rose my lashes, dreading what I would find.  Instead of disappointment, my eyes met an unexpected fierceness.  In his quiet yet oh so demanding tone, he asked, "Did I give you fucking permission to cry?"

"No Sir," I whispered even as my tears fell.

"Then let me give you something to fucking cry about," he growled.

He tightened his grip on my jaw and opened my mouth to a searing kiss.  His tongue sank deep and dark into my mouth, leaving me breathless and igniting a sudden all consuming fire in my gut.  He squeezed my cheeks, forcing my jaw wider to thoroughly control our kiss.  He demanded.  I gave.  He sucked harshly at my tongue until it was dragged out of my mouth to claim and use.  His teeth and firm lips claimed a unique intimacy so brutal and raw that I was helpless.

When he raised his head, I laid limply in the shelter of his arms.  I couldn't think.  He let go of my face but held firmly to my hair.  Through my shuttered lashes I watched him look me up and down.  A dark laugh was my only warning before I felt him tug at the bunched skirt of my dress and exposed my panty-less pussy.  I was embarrassed to realize that during our kiss, I had instinctually spread my legs wantonly for him.  In a soft gruff voice he coaxed my desire, "Ahhhh...there we go.  I knew that's what you needed.  You need Daddy to touch you don't you, babygirl?"

I tried to close my legs in shame, but Daddy immediately smack each thigh.  "Show Daddy that sweet juicy cunt, baby.  I know you're already nice and wet."

I whimpered but again obeyed, spreading myself wide for his eyes.  I could feel my slick damp folds, even as I continued to cry.  I was confused by the extremes tearing through me.  "Mmmmm...look how wet you are for Daddy."  He reached between my legs and firmly dragged a single finger through my drenched cunt.  "Such a good slut."  I cried out at the intrusion and tried to pull away.  I wanted, yet...I...I didn't know...

He shifted his weight to hold me in place, then slowly dragged his wet finger across my lips.  "Yes, that tells Daddy exactly what you need and want."  Gently he licked and sucked at my lips to taste as he tore the front of my dress open to expose my heavy aching breasts.  I started to sob.

"Daddy...please..." I begged.

"What, babygirl?" he cooed sweetly as His hand brutally molded one breast and pinched its taunt nipple.  "What do you need from Daddy?" he whispered in my ear.

All I could do was whimper.

"You don't know," he chided me.  "But I do."  His fingers dug into the soft tender flesh of my breast.  Heaven and hell.  I groaned.  I sniffled.  "And I'm going to give you exactly what you need.  What we BOTH need...a reason for you to cry."  Daddy held my most sensitive breast up and firmly sucked my fat nipple,  His teeth worried that thick meat making me cry out in pain.

"That's only the beginning little girl," he promised.  The hard slap to my heavy breast stung like fire.  "You need to feel Daddy's hunger for you, don't you?"  Another slap to the other.  I whimpered with each lick of sweet pain.  "My lil slut need Daddy to play with her to make her better, don't you?"  My mind was shattering, and I missed my chance to reply.   Two hard wicked slaps to my heaving breasts were my punishment.  "Answer me!"

"Yes, Daddy.  Please....Please, Daddy," I pleaded as I instinctively I tried to curl in on myself closing my legs and bringing them to my chest.

"Don't fucking shut your legs.  You know better than that," he growled pulling my hair hard.  "Open them up wide and show Daddy that pretty little fuckhole you want Daddy to play with before I beat you for disobeying me."

I clutched at the hem of my dress and dragged it to my waist and open my creamy thighs wide.  I could feel my juices slide out of my pussy and down to tease my tight puckered asshole.  "Mmmmmm...such a good girl for Daddy," he whispered.  His hand grabbed at my crotch harshly. "Were you scared, baby?"  Two fingers slipped inside me, and I helplessly arched into Daddy's demanding touch.

"Yes, Daddy," I cried, tears brimming again even as desire flooded my body.

Three fingers..."Did you think Daddy would walk away from his precious little girl?"  My juices were slick and hot around his fingers.  I began to pant and whimper.

"I didn't know, Daddy.  I didn't know.  I hate dis-a-apointing you."  His hand slid from my hair to wrap lightly around my neck.  I leaned my head back further, desperate for his dominance.

Light kisses peppered my full breasts.  "I know you do, baby.  I know you do."  He paused for a moment with those three long fingers seated so deeply inside me, teasing my inner walls.  Then he whispered so sweetly, "Now be a very, very good girl for Daddy, okay?"  As I nodded my head, lips pressed tightly together in response to his erotic touch, his fingers slip gently from me.  I whimpered at the loss.  "Now, cum as I stretch that sweet greedy pussy nice and wide."

His grip on my neck tightened, restraining my air as four fingers slammed brutally into me stretching the tunnel he used with no apology.   "Cum for Daddy."   His palm beat against my sensitive clit.  "  Squirt all over the bed and your dress."   Rapid strokes meant to demand my orgasm.     "Show Daddy how much you like me hurting you."

Straining for air, I erupted.  My hot wet orgasm pour all over his hands like a waterfall.  Daddy only laughed.  "Such a good little slut."  His pounding continued.  He released my throat to hear my desperate groans.  Wave after wave splashed my thighs, soaking my dress and the comforter.  He unmercifully spread the lips of my hole wide, so he could watch the spasms rack through me.  "Ahhhh...look at you cum so hard for Daddy."

Embarrassed at such intimacy, I buried my face against his chest struggling to catch my breath from my continued tears and the forced orgasm.  He never gave me a chance.  "Still crying, little girl?" A firm slap to my open exposed hole sent fire racing up my spine.   "There's a good reason."  Another.  In reflex my thighs snapped shut. Daddy simply pried them apart leaving bruises in my resistance and his demand.

"Please Daddy!  It hurts!" I sobbed.

"I know.  I know it fucking hurts."  Rapid smacks to my thighs, my cunt, my bottom.  "I like hurting you." Each strike becoming harder.

"Daddy...Daddy..." I whaled again and again through my tears.

"Awww...poor baby."  Smack.  "Keep crying."  SMACK!  "Give it to Daddy."  SMACK!  "Give it to me."  SMACK!   He simply increased the  intensity  with each blow.  I was struggling to move away from him.  He refused to grant me mercy.

Suddenly the fiery pain pounding in my head shift.  Replaced by the cool, overwhelming grace of subspace.  Every muscle in my body relaxed.  My tears finally ceased.  I moaned..."Yes...Daddy.  Please...more."  My legs spread wide offering myself to him with abandon.  He gave me exactly what I craved.

"Ahhhh yes...There you go baby.  Take it all...Take..."  He reigned violence down on me as I devoured the incredibly beautiful pain that he gave.  I orgasmed again and again without shame as he watched his baby's gushing hole.

"Thank you Daddy...Thank you...More...Thank you..." I chanted.  My mind, body, and soul absorbing every touch and torment.  I was lost in all that was us.

"Such a good girl...such a very good girl."  I felt Daddy's weight shift to between my thighs and then he was sinking so deeply in me.  His hands threaded tightly in my hair.  My arms and legs curled around him as he began to rock firmly in me.  "Look at me, baby.  Look at Daddy."

My hazed gaze met his.  "Your mine."  He filled my swollen cunt as he kissed my tear stained cheeks.  "Don't ever doubt that.  I'm not letting you go."

"I'm yours, Daddy." I whispered, arching to meet his demand.  "Always."

"Good girl.  Very good girl.  Now take..."

Again and again Daddy took all that what was His, and I gave Him everything.
~DominaKat