Myself to Blame

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When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
~Fix You by Coldplay

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I have no one to blame
But myself.
I was warned.

Again.
And again.
And again.

But I held my course.
Fought through the stumbles.
Turned a blind eye to the inevitable.

I tried.
To be my best.
I tried.

Again.
And again.
And again.

When the blows dug deep.
When the cuts burned like fire.
I absorbed them all.

And gave more.
More room to move.
More pieces of me.

Again.
And again.
And again.

It didn't matter.
It wasn't enough.
The same choices taken.

Despite my words.
Despite my needs.
Despite my pain.

Again.
And again.
And again.

I have no one to blame.
But myself.
~A Sleepless Lioness