I could feel the offness of me.
An undeniable call toward an unfamiliar desire.
I couldn't sleep.
My sex cold.
Yet hot skin vibrated.
Through trembling veins.
Sprung of an aching soul.
There...a tug at that door I kept closed.
And knocked me to my knees in shame.
I craved merciless and overwhelming wrath.
My frantic mind longed.
For the silent serenity of my echoing screams.
My tender heart begged
For the sweet bliss of violent cruelty.
I needed to hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt HURT.
Harsh slaps, hair wrenching, groping grabs, and punishing shoves.
I was desperate to wallow helplessly bound in the darkest of darkness.
Where I truly abandoned all control, reason, and sanity.
And gave in to...You.
I wanted to be destroyed at Your fists.
Broken and shattered at Your feet.
A tear stained, bruised mass.
Mindless in the purity of fear and pain.
I hungered for Your most sadistic punishment.
So I could surrender my pain, sorrow, and fear.
To Your ultimate Domination.
I sought to sate You with the deepest of sacrifices.
To sob beg cringe moan bruise plead and bleed for You.
To make amends and offer willing humiliation and agony.
I would have gratefully welcomed Your vicious torment.
I was lost in the haze.
Held hostage that night by my need.
For my submission to be ripped from my soul.
I needed You, M.
Your Beast without restraint.
That's all I craved.