Do You Ask Yourself?

~Not gentle.  Not kind.  Simply cutting through the bullshit and saying what needs to be said.~

When you're alone at night
With all your games silently asleep
Do you ask yourself...
How weak you are?

When no one is doting on you
Submersing you in attention
Do you ask yourself...
Will it ever be enough?

No matter how many you go through
How often you indulge
Do you ask yourself...
Why you're never sated?

When their fawning fades
And the emptiness gnaws at you
Do you ask yourself...
What will happen?

When you look back
And see your path littered
With serial relationships that never stuck
With brief unfulfilling encounters
With surface play that never quite touches you

Do you ask yourself...

If in the end
When your looks fade
When your body withers
When your time begins to disappear

Do you ask yourself...

If you'll be all alone?
In the end.

With no place to go
No one to turn to
No hand to hold
No love to shelter you

With nothing to hang on to
But emptiness

And no one to blame
but yourself.

Because you never invested all of you in another.
Instead choosing to be distracted by anything that came near.

Because you chose never to focus entirely on anyone
Other than yourself.

Because you wouldn't be strong enough
To make the hard choice to hang on with all you had.

Because you lacked the courage
To love someone more than your own selfish needs.

Because you refused to master your chaos.
And be honest, true, and devoted.

Because you never faced your deepest fears
And gave all you had to give to someone who loved you.

Do you ever ask yourself...

If in the end
You'll have nothing?
~DominaKat